Well…….. infusion three happened last Friday. I mentioned some side effects from chemo two (chemo brain, fatigue, numb fingers and toes, nose sores, gum bleeds and insomnia) to the medicos, which caused much discussion about whether to proceed. We concluded that the magnitude of the side effects was not great, so OK to proceed.
An example of chemo brain was using a jig saw to cut a plywood panel for a vegetable box. There was simply no way that I could follow the line drawn on the panel, or even cut a straight line. It was very distressing. Other examples are losing my toothpaste, my belt, my mobile phone, socks and various other items (not counting my mind!). Scary for someone who is obsessive compulsive about putting stuff back where it belongs.
I can be muddle headed, confused and emotionally unstable, which worries me. Overlay this with the effects of insomnia and fatigue and I am feeling lousy at times.
Numb fingers and toes result in clumsy stuff and fumbling things. I was heating up my daughter’s dinner in the oven the other night, and was testing the temperature using a metal skewer. I kept checking the skewer with my fingers and could not understand why the temperature was not rising. I then put the skewer on the back of my hand to discover that it was hot. I was warned about this and should have known better.
Since chemo three the nose sores have worsened, and fatigue has really set in. Big time. I am very fortunate to not have some of the really nasty side effects. However, I am told that the side effects can increase with each cycle. As I am not yet half way through, this is a worry.
I really need to snap out of this funk and see things more positively. Cheers, Phil